Mom…
As probably most of you know who are reading this, my mom passed away a couple weeks ago. She had been sick for a long time, as well as in and out of hospitals for nearly nine months now. While we were not ready or expecting to say goodbye so soon, we are thankful that she is no longer in the pain she has been in for the last couple years.
I’ve had lots of strange and new thoughts since she left. Thoughts of moving home to Walla Walla… thoughts of wanting a family…thoughts of just wanting even just ten more minutes with her. I’ve also found that there are so many things I never thought to say when she was there. Since she passed away, I am finding that I took my mom always being there for granted. I thought I’d always have another chance to see her, have another chance to ask her questions about her childhood or our family history, or have one more chance to tell her I loved her again. I got to Walla Walla about four hours too late to tell her I loved her in person for the last time - something I literally think about ten times a day.
I’m also wondering if I’ll keep up this little online blog/journal. One of the main reasons I started my blog was to keep mom updated on the ‘small things’ going on in my life. We both wanted to keep up with each others’ little details, but neither of us are the consistent talk-on-the-phone types. The blog was a great way for her to see the little things I’m up to, and when we did talk on the phone she’d be ready with a list of things to ask me about. She also loved reading all of my friends blogs. She’d often start conversations with “have you seen Becca’s latest post?” or “that wedding Courtney went to looked amazing” or “did you hear Michelle’s luggage got lost?!” She loved knowing the news at the same time as me - or sometimes even before me!
I digress. Anyway, I wanted to also thank everyone for all your support over the past couple weeks. The hugs, the flowers, the food, the road trips to Walla Walla, the cards and the emails… it all helped me and my family get through this tough time. It is times like this that make you really realize just how important relationships are. Without close relationships with those people you love and who love and support you, life would just be impossible.
